Write about a song and memories or feelings it
evokes in you.
While my husband was away for seventeen months
on deployment, I struggled with some friendships, two to be exact. They were my closest friends at the time. I did stuff with them all the time. No matter what I did, both women criticized me
for taking the wrong approach with the deployment. My parenting, work, and marriage were all
judged and found lacking. Now, all of us
were pretty miserable and highly emotional. Our husbands were gone. They were being shot at, and we could be
visited by soldiers in dress uniform. So,
I tried hard to be patient and understanding. I finally broke off the friendships. Someday, I will probably write about that
time.
My theme song for a majority of the deployment
was “My Give a Damn’s Busted” by Jo Dee Messina After dropping kids off or before picking them
up, I would sing that song at the top of my lungs with the stereo blaring in my
pickup. Hum, and I wonder why I am
struggling with my hearing. Opps.
Now, I realize the song is about a guy and a
girl, but for the most part for me, it was about a woman and her friends. I sang the song thinking of how I didn't care
what they thought about me or how I was handling the deployment. Of course, that wasn't true at the
beginning. I wanted to quit caring about
them, and over time I did. Once I
started stepped away from the drama they provoked, I found a quiet rhythm to
our days. I healed, and I thrived. I also found my true friends who didn't
criticize. Anyway, I love song and the
chorus.
I really want to care,
I want to feel somethin’
Let me dig a little deeper
Naw
Sorry
Nothin.
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