Happy
Easter! My favorite holiday arrived with
little fanfare this year. All of last
week, I suffered with my autoimmune diseases.
I hate to be dramatic about the situation, but my body ached, my energy
drained, and my mood steadily declined. I
prayed and then I asked others to pray for me.
I am still sore and pain shoots through me periodically. I am happy to say my energy is better which the
main factor for my moods is the level.
If I have energy my brain is awake; life is good. I get grumpy when I live in a constant state
of fog. Unfortunately, my daughter ended
up growing up a little through this time.
As
Easter closed in, I only went shopping once.
I bought eggs and chocolate at the grocery store. I failed to shop anywhere else. I logically reasoned that we needed to cut
back this year because of finances. I
failed to pick up any Easter Bunny gifts.
I failed to realize Madelle who loves holidays and tradition would be
upset by the change. Yesterday morning
she complained about everything. “There
isn’t much in the basket. I didn’t get a
gift. The eggs aren’t hid very well. The chocolate bunny is hollow.” I was thinking I had a very ungrateful
daughter. I complained with my husband
and he pointed out that she thought she did something wrong.
After
Mass, he took her for a walk. I watched
in sadness as they drifted down the road.
He told her the truth about the Easter Bunny. He also let her know that because I had been
sick and he had been crazy busy at work we didn’t put in the normal time to get
the holiday ready. We didn’t decorate or
shop properly. Tears stained her eyes as
she came in the door. Later in the day,
the boy (her nickname for her older brother) drove her to the movie store. With the Easter Bunny’s money (Dad’s), she
bought the movie Rise of the Guardians.
Watching the movie, I know she mourned the rabbit’s existence. I must confess; I did as well. She wants to do something special next
year. Hum, I think I will put her in
charge of that!
At
Mass, Father talked about the reality of death and suffering. Both my daughter and I lived in that reality
this season. I suffered in pain and she
suffered the death of a beloved make believe friend. I also became misty eyed as I realized this
was the last Easter with my son living in our home as a child. As I watched parishioners go through the
communion line, a friend passed by with tears streaming down her face. Instantly my tears flowed as well. She is battling cancer. Her suffering is so real, deep and she may be
facing the tomb. Yet, as I look out my
window at the sun streaming down, we are so very blessed. Jesus came back for us. No, the Easter Bunny won’t live, but we will
live after we face the tomb. And as we
face death, Jesus will walk every step of the way with us.
We will
suffer. We will die. But that is only half the story.
Blessings
to you all.
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